The month of June was a rollercoaster ride. I started it with my mother being admitted into the hospital and hosting an online book fair. I did not know it would be one of the hardest months of my life.
My mother was having problems breathing and the doctors put her on a ventilator. Instead of coming out of the sedation they put her under, she went deeper under. Since we had been here before, my sisters and I waited patiently for our mother to come back to her normal self.
While this was going on, life continued. I was government worker, turned mother and wife and on the weekends I was hosting the online book fair. Now why didn’t I cancel you wonder? My sanity. I needed to appear normal or I would have fallen apart.
It was hard seeing my mother all hooked up to these many tubes and her eyes closed in the ICU room. I felt like a helpless child. All I could do was call out to the Lord, which I did many times during this time.
Working kept me going and motivated to know each day was a new one and something good could happen. I knew God had this, so I had to continue with my life and let him stay in control. If I took control I would fall apart and I couldn’t do that.
My mother died on June 16th. I know it might sound strange, but I believe she came to me in my dreams and told me we would be ok.
The really hard part started then, but we made it through. I know for sure my relationship with God blossomed during this time. He was my father, my friend, my shoulder to lend on and my rock when I couldn’t go any farther. He helped me through the pain.
How do you get through the pain?
